Friday is my birthday and I don't know how to quite feel about it. I remember when I was younger I would countdown the days leading up to my big day. Now, I want to stop time. I don't want to get any older without being a mom. I remember as a little girl saying how I hoped to be a mom at the age of 28. Well, that will more than likely not happen. I also wanted to be on the waitlist by Friday, which is also not going to happen. But I will be a mom sooner than later and I am grateful for that. I am also thankful that I am truly following God's will. I am accepting it and although it is hard at times, I keep reminding myself He is the one writing this amazing story. Even when I try to be in control of the adoption process, I just can't. I sometimes want to go crazy because I like to know exactly when things are going to happen. Oh how I wish this process would not be as unpredictable. I am hoping and praying and wishing (do I sense a birthday wish) to be on the waitlist by August. There. I am being realistic. Although it would be nice to be on the list by our anniversary next month (hint, hint God).
Only He knows why everything is taking as long as it is. Why every step takes us to the next. Why just when it starts to feel like we are making progress at a fast pace, something comes up and brings us to a stand still. I think that is God telling us to slow down. But I will say it yet again, I can't wait to see the greatest, bestest, most awesomest little blessing He has planned for us.
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| We were invited to the 2011 Military Ball on my b-day :) |
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| Good times! |
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| With my sisters and nephews |
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| Make a wish! |
I received my birthday present from Rob today in the mail and I LOVE it!
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| My necklace came in this pretty package |
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| Just in case you need a verbal description: it is a heart with the word Ethiopia written inside of it and a charm in the shape of Africa :) |
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