I love reading other people's blogs. I love to read about what other families are feeling (both good and bad), what they are thinking, seeing pictures; some with their Ethiopian babies and some with their biological babies. Lately, I keep reading of more and more families switching programs, adopting domestically, or even switching agencies. I know everyone is praying for God to lead the way. I know He is changing hearts and finding children good homes in the end. I think that is wonderful. I think those that are taking different paths are really listening to their prayers being answered and letting Him lead them to their child. Basically, there is no right or wrong decision here, just good people that care for the orphans letting God take over.
It makes me wonder though, am I being stubborn? Am I being dumb for sticking with a program where clearly, the wait keeps increasing nonstop? I feel like we are willingly running into a storm while everyone else is taking cover. But, the minute I start to think of other programs/agencies, I feel stress and anxiety. We still feel at peace with Ethiopia. We agree and understand why the wait is so long. Most importantly, we still feel excitement. We wonder if 2013 will be OUR year and if not, 2014 is a pretty good number. We constantly ask ourselves why God is giving us so much more time to prepare. Well, for one, I need to finish my master's degree (which I will in August) so... boom! there goes our first year on the list. That means I have the second year to find a new job and possibly move to another city... boom! there goes another year on the list. And hello! we need to find a good school, pediatrician, a good park to play at, the whole nine yards in the new town so...boom! there goes another 6 months. Still with me? So for those wondering if switching programs is in our hearts right now, the answer is no. We keep falling more in love with Ethiopia as we learn more about it. We keep dreaming about visiting Ethiopia. Most importantly, we keep praying for an Ethiopian little boy.
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| On Monday night, we caught ourselves watching the Insanity infomercial as we were eating a piece of chocolate cake :(. Well, they sold it to us and we received the package today so...boom! there goes the next 60 days. |
I like your booms through out your blog, but like u say boom soon your son will be here. As long as you have peace about your decision then stick to it. God knows the perfect timing for all of us. It's hard to believe that God is really working on our situations when there aren't any signs but they say the silent moments in our life is when he is working the hardest and also seeing what our hearts are really made up.
ReplyDeleteThat was such a huge question for us too- are we leaving the Ethiopia program because we're impatient, or is God telling us to move elsewhere? And we seemed the feel the opposite of you...we felt peace about switching to Ghana, but total anxiety when thinking of staying with Ethiopia.
ReplyDeleteI truly believe that if you are prayerfully asking God what his plan is for your family, and you feel peace about staying with Ethiopia, that's exactly what he wants you to do. Ethiopia is an amazing country and I'm so happy that your baby will be born there. I will be praying for your family!